Wednesday, September 29, 2004
There is freedom within... there is freedom without....
lalalalala... do you know what day it is today? I am officially 15 years and 1 week old... added to that, my sister has gone off to oxford. Added to that, my parents have gone with her.
Premise 1: If my sister goes off to Oxford, I am allowed to wreck her room
Premise 2: I am free to do what I like when my parents go off with her
Premise 3: I am happy when I can do whatever I like and I can wreck my sister's room
Premise 4: My sister and my parents have gone off to Oxford
Conclusion: I am happy!!!!!
wheee..... see? I can apply logic to real life! Isn't that exciting???? haha.... I am high... very high... super high... and I'm not drunk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!! wow... I'm spastic today.... but I deserve to be....
anyways... God bless my sis and keep her safe and keep LiJing from going into a decline... and let the house not burn down...
lalalalala... do you know what day it is today? I am officially 15 years and 1 week old... added to that, my sister has gone off to oxford. Added to that, my parents have gone with her.
Premise 1: If my sister goes off to Oxford, I am allowed to wreck her room
Premise 2: I am free to do what I like when my parents go off with her
Premise 3: I am happy when I can do whatever I like and I can wreck my sister's room
Premise 4: My sister and my parents have gone off to Oxford
Conclusion: I am happy!!!!!
wheee..... see? I can apply logic to real life! Isn't that exciting???? haha.... I am high... very high... super high... and I'm not drunk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!! wow... I'm spastic today.... but I deserve to be....
anyways... God bless my sis and keep her safe and keep LiJing from going into a decline... and let the house not burn down...
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
My birthday!!!!!!!!!!
The wonderfullest birthday I've ever experienced... I'm perfectly happy and content for loads of reasons:
a)Maths teachers weren't in today. therefore, free period!!!!
b)Mog essay postponed. therefore, no need to do it... :D
c)class party that totally rocked!... wacko was fun and everything
d)The wonderful people and friends around me who made the above reasons doubly fun... :P
It was a different experience from last year... no one remembered my birthday... not even my parents... until 9 at night...
Life this year has been hectic... but the next one's going to be even more so...
anyways, got a few resolutions here:
1)I will always ALWAYS put God first, no matter what
2)All things I do will be done for His glory.
3)I will TRY to do all my homework on my own and pass it up on time
4)I will try not to be and idiot and try not to piss everyone off, especially my parents
anyways... life has suddenly become a bed of roses within a day... just had a b-dae mooncake and a pressie from my sis... and so much dinner that I'm like a pig ready for the suckling pig course.
Thanks everyone for today... and I want to thank my father and my mother... haha.... I want to thank GOD....
The wonderfullest birthday I've ever experienced... I'm perfectly happy and content for loads of reasons:
a)Maths teachers weren't in today. therefore, free period!!!!
b)Mog essay postponed. therefore, no need to do it... :D
c)class party that totally rocked!... wacko was fun and everything
d)The wonderful people and friends around me who made the above reasons doubly fun... :P
It was a different experience from last year... no one remembered my birthday... not even my parents... until 9 at night...
Life this year has been hectic... but the next one's going to be even more so...
anyways, got a few resolutions here:
1)I will always ALWAYS put God first, no matter what
2)All things I do will be done for His glory.
3)I will TRY to do all my homework on my own and pass it up on time
4)I will try not to be and idiot and try not to piss everyone off, especially my parents
anyways... life has suddenly become a bed of roses within a day... just had a b-dae mooncake and a pressie from my sis... and so much dinner that I'm like a pig ready for the suckling pig course.
Thanks everyone for today... and I want to thank my father and my mother... haha.... I want to thank GOD....
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
Another chapter in my life drawing to its close... I have 3 hours and 49 minutes until my 15th birthday comes up... I'm talking to Wei Ge now... and somehow I seem to be wondering and thinking... about life and love... and the mysteries before everyone. Somehow, this quote came to me: This is Love, not that he loved us, but that he loved us while we were still his enemy.
Is this God talking to me now? To try to love all around me like how Jesus does? I don't know.
Somehow, I'm counting down the minutes to my 15th birthday... I just feel as though I'm on the brink of something new, I don't know what. Something tells me the year ahead won't be easy for me... All I want to do is do the best I can do, for God, myself and everyone else.....
Looking over the past year, I realized that it's been a rollercoaster of emotions and events. And I'm still wondering if I've had a fulfilling year... I kept drawing close, then pushing God away, my life has changed so much I don't ven know what it's like now. But I guess I've grown up, a little wiser(?) added a few more kg to my body weight and a few more mm to my height. I don't know how it is that I even managed to get past this year.
Strangely philosophical again... shall go to bed pondering the mysteries and joys of living... 2 more hours and 56 minutes left...
BTW... thanks to Choy, Tania, Wei Ge and Weilin for remembering my b-dae in advance... :P thanks guys!!!
Is this God talking to me now? To try to love all around me like how Jesus does? I don't know.
Somehow, I'm counting down the minutes to my 15th birthday... I just feel as though I'm on the brink of something new, I don't know what. Something tells me the year ahead won't be easy for me... All I want to do is do the best I can do, for God, myself and everyone else.....
Looking over the past year, I realized that it's been a rollercoaster of emotions and events. And I'm still wondering if I've had a fulfilling year... I kept drawing close, then pushing God away, my life has changed so much I don't ven know what it's like now. But I guess I've grown up, a little wiser(?) added a few more kg to my body weight and a few more mm to my height. I don't know how it is that I even managed to get past this year.
Strangely philosophical again... shall go to bed pondering the mysteries and joys of living... 2 more hours and 56 minutes left...
BTW... thanks to Choy, Tania, Wei Ge and Weilin for remembering my b-dae in advance... :P thanks guys!!!
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Just came back from Youth Service... and I've felt God in me so strongly tonight...
It's always been such a miracle that God knows what I need when I do. I've never been touched by Him so strongly one other time in my life, and that was at the church camp in 2001. And lately, ever since Alex, ever since I came to NJC, I felt so uprooted, and I guess I just backslid... my faith kind of receded, and I tried to get back to Him. There were so many altar calls made, and somehow I just couldn't seem to be able to move up front to be prayed for, but tonight, when the altar call was made, God told me "it's time for you to step up, to go up front there." I couldn't move at first, 'cos I didn't want to go, I was afraid, somehow... and after some time, I felt as though I let God down, because the front was filling up, and I just couldn't move. Then Wei Shan (my friend from church) just suddenly said "Do you want to go up?" So I went with her, and we both stood together in front, and I was hoping that someone would help me, and ask God to help me to great hings for Him, that I couls be what He wanted me to be, and to let be come back to Him. After that, James (my cluster leader) came up to me and told me "God knows your heart's desires. He wants you to draw back to Him, and He says that He'll use your talents and gifts to do great things for Him. All He wants you to do is have that faith and boldness in coming forward to do His work." After that, I cried. God had answered me, and somehow, I just had to go down on my knees... I could feel my entire body trembling, and just realized how comforting God was. he was overwhelming, but at the same time, I felt so at peace, because he lifted my burdens...
"I eagerly expect snd hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exlated in my body, whether by life or by death."
- Philippians 1:20
It's always been such a miracle that God knows what I need when I do. I've never been touched by Him so strongly one other time in my life, and that was at the church camp in 2001. And lately, ever since Alex, ever since I came to NJC, I felt so uprooted, and I guess I just backslid... my faith kind of receded, and I tried to get back to Him. There were so many altar calls made, and somehow I just couldn't seem to be able to move up front to be prayed for, but tonight, when the altar call was made, God told me "it's time for you to step up, to go up front there." I couldn't move at first, 'cos I didn't want to go, I was afraid, somehow... and after some time, I felt as though I let God down, because the front was filling up, and I just couldn't move. Then Wei Shan (my friend from church) just suddenly said "Do you want to go up?" So I went with her, and we both stood together in front, and I was hoping that someone would help me, and ask God to help me to great hings for Him, that I couls be what He wanted me to be, and to let be come back to Him. After that, James (my cluster leader) came up to me and told me "God knows your heart's desires. He wants you to draw back to Him, and He says that He'll use your talents and gifts to do great things for Him. All He wants you to do is have that faith and boldness in coming forward to do His work." After that, I cried. God had answered me, and somehow, I just had to go down on my knees... I could feel my entire body trembling, and just realized how comforting God was. he was overwhelming, but at the same time, I felt so at peace, because he lifted my burdens...
"I eagerly expect snd hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exlated in my body, whether by life or by death."
- Philippians 1:20
Sunday, September 12, 2004
last day of the school hols... I have never been so screwed for homework... have no idea how to do geog, left my shou ce in school so I can't do chinese, done 3/4 of german, have no idea if maths needs to be passed up, haven't started research for humans essay, haven't started on WP, but since LOTR was on the reading list and I've already read it I'll just do it...
Admission of the year!!! My sis has just finally admitted that she has a boyfriend... but then, it was kind of obvious in the first place... probably only to me, cos mum and dad weren't at home when Li Jing(that's her bf) came over... anyways, he's quite a nice guy, was from RJC rugby... funnily enough, he was my replacement for the Merry widow when I couldn't go (thanks to he humans test) and mum wasn't even suspicious when my sis asked him along (out of the hundreds of girl, let alone guy friends she has) he's not good enough for my sis, (no one can be, anyways) but he's passable :P... told my sis that stage one of the bf examinations has passed... stage 2 (the real killer) is when he meets the parents... *evil cackle* RIP, Li Jing... *more evil cackling*
It's been an interesting year... and now there's 7 more weeks until the december holidays start... pity my sis won't be around then... she'll be in the UK studying (after 10 months of playing... ok!!! working as well!) can't go with her and my parents to oxford cos I have school... what was actually funny was that my parents wanted to pull me away too... and skip school... :P but unfortunately and stupidly, my studious self rose up and said NO... on the brighter side, I get the WHOLE house to myself for 10 days!!!!!! Yo peeps!!!!!!! Party Time... just kidding... :P
Admission of the year!!! My sis has just finally admitted that she has a boyfriend... but then, it was kind of obvious in the first place... probably only to me, cos mum and dad weren't at home when Li Jing(that's her bf) came over... anyways, he's quite a nice guy, was from RJC rugby... funnily enough, he was my replacement for the Merry widow when I couldn't go (thanks to he humans test) and mum wasn't even suspicious when my sis asked him along (out of the hundreds of girl, let alone guy friends she has) he's not good enough for my sis, (no one can be, anyways) but he's passable :P... told my sis that stage one of the bf examinations has passed... stage 2 (the real killer) is when he meets the parents... *evil cackle* RIP, Li Jing... *more evil cackling*
It's been an interesting year... and now there's 7 more weeks until the december holidays start... pity my sis won't be around then... she'll be in the UK studying (after 10 months of playing... ok!!! working as well!) can't go with her and my parents to oxford cos I have school... what was actually funny was that my parents wanted to pull me away too... and skip school... :P but unfortunately and stupidly, my studious self rose up and said NO... on the brighter side, I get the WHOLE house to myself for 10 days!!!!!! Yo peeps!!!!!!! Party Time... just kidding... :P
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Went rollerblading with Joanne, Delia, and Joseph this morning... not that most of my frequent blog readers know them... it was really fun, I think we bladed about half the length of east coast park... or maybe I'm exaggerating...
My mum seems to have gone out of her way to be extremely pissy today... after blading, we were supposed to watch garfield, but didn't in the end cos she said that a) I had already watched one movie and b) I couldn't go out with my friends as long as a guy was there... haha... contradiction... why the hell did she let me go blading in the first place if Joseph was coming along? and then since Joseph wasn't allowed to come with us, Delia and I had to tell him that... made no diff for Joanne since she had to go home and study anyway... and it was unfair for Joseph cos Delia had asked him in the first place, and it had been settled already...
Just found out last night that my Dad knew about me and Alex all along... and guess who told him... Virginia Cheng. She even told him that she'd keep an eye on me in the future and make sure that all the guys I hang out with are ok... and Tim's dad even volunteered to help...!!! This sucks... big time... she has proven herself to be the most infuriating, frustrating, irritating busybody that has ever entered this world.
My mum seems to have gone out of her way to be extremely pissy today... after blading, we were supposed to watch garfield, but didn't in the end cos she said that a) I had already watched one movie and b) I couldn't go out with my friends as long as a guy was there... haha... contradiction... why the hell did she let me go blading in the first place if Joseph was coming along? and then since Joseph wasn't allowed to come with us, Delia and I had to tell him that... made no diff for Joanne since she had to go home and study anyway... and it was unfair for Joseph cos Delia had asked him in the first place, and it had been settled already...
Just found out last night that my Dad knew about me and Alex all along... and guess who told him... Virginia Cheng. She even told him that she'd keep an eye on me in the future and make sure that all the guys I hang out with are ok... and Tim's dad even volunteered to help...!!! This sucks... big time... she has proven herself to be the most infuriating, frustrating, irritating busybody that has ever entered this world.
