Saturday, September 18, 2004
Just came back from Youth Service... and I've felt God in me so strongly tonight...
It's always been such a miracle that God knows what I need when I do. I've never been touched by Him so strongly one other time in my life, and that was at the church camp in 2001. And lately, ever since Alex, ever since I came to NJC, I felt so uprooted, and I guess I just backslid... my faith kind of receded, and I tried to get back to Him. There were so many altar calls made, and somehow I just couldn't seem to be able to move up front to be prayed for, but tonight, when the altar call was made, God told me "it's time for you to step up, to go up front there." I couldn't move at first, 'cos I didn't want to go, I was afraid, somehow... and after some time, I felt as though I let God down, because the front was filling up, and I just couldn't move. Then Wei Shan (my friend from church) just suddenly said "Do you want to go up?" So I went with her, and we both stood together in front, and I was hoping that someone would help me, and ask God to help me to great hings for Him, that I couls be what He wanted me to be, and to let be come back to Him. After that, James (my cluster leader) came up to me and told me "God knows your heart's desires. He wants you to draw back to Him, and He says that He'll use your talents and gifts to do great things for Him. All He wants you to do is have that faith and boldness in coming forward to do His work." After that, I cried. God had answered me, and somehow, I just had to go down on my knees... I could feel my entire body trembling, and just realized how comforting God was. he was overwhelming, but at the same time, I felt so at peace, because he lifted my burdens...
"I eagerly expect snd hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exlated in my body, whether by life or by death."
- Philippians 1:20
It's always been such a miracle that God knows what I need when I do. I've never been touched by Him so strongly one other time in my life, and that was at the church camp in 2001. And lately, ever since Alex, ever since I came to NJC, I felt so uprooted, and I guess I just backslid... my faith kind of receded, and I tried to get back to Him. There were so many altar calls made, and somehow I just couldn't seem to be able to move up front to be prayed for, but tonight, when the altar call was made, God told me "it's time for you to step up, to go up front there." I couldn't move at first, 'cos I didn't want to go, I was afraid, somehow... and after some time, I felt as though I let God down, because the front was filling up, and I just couldn't move. Then Wei Shan (my friend from church) just suddenly said "Do you want to go up?" So I went with her, and we both stood together in front, and I was hoping that someone would help me, and ask God to help me to great hings for Him, that I couls be what He wanted me to be, and to let be come back to Him. After that, James (my cluster leader) came up to me and told me "God knows your heart's desires. He wants you to draw back to Him, and He says that He'll use your talents and gifts to do great things for Him. All He wants you to do is have that faith and boldness in coming forward to do His work." After that, I cried. God had answered me, and somehow, I just had to go down on my knees... I could feel my entire body trembling, and just realized how comforting God was. he was overwhelming, but at the same time, I felt so at peace, because he lifted my burdens...
"I eagerly expect snd hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exlated in my body, whether by life or by death."
- Philippians 1:20
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