Sunday, April 04, 2004
I really think I'm starting to go crazy. It's 3.40 in the morning and I can't sleep. So guess what I'm doing? My WP essay that's due on mon. Maybe I can't sleep 'cos my my subconscious feels guilty about not having done any homework at all on Saturday, but if you look at it, I NEED a break. I haven't gotten a nice one-week march holiday break cos I was in Maldives building (or helping to build) a community centre, so technically I haven't stopped working since the actual school term started in week 3. I just realised that my life sounds really REALLY sad... heehee.
As I'm suffering from a writer's block, I've stopped writing my essay. I'll have to finish it later today. I can't think now. Anyway, that essay has started me thinking about my own identity and character traits. If I ask people what they think of me, they generally would go: sweet. Lots of people such as the entire debate socety in NJ think I'm sweet. I seriously don't get it. I mean like, hello? Irritating, yes. Insensitive, yes. Extra and weird, yes. Sweet, NO. Alright, fine, I won't push the matter any longer. But it's stupid.
Coming back to my own personality, I have no idea what else I am. I have this weird inferiority complex that allows me to come up with a long list of faults, but the minute I try to think of my qualities, I come up with zilch. Maybe one or two.
Anyway, I'm off to sleep now... Kind of tired myself out writing... But I think the main crux of my essay is penned down here... *sigh* interspersing debate terms with my speech again... haha... my mind's starting to switch off, so I shall go back to sleep.
As I'm suffering from a writer's block, I've stopped writing my essay. I'll have to finish it later today. I can't think now. Anyway, that essay has started me thinking about my own identity and character traits. If I ask people what they think of me, they generally would go: sweet. Lots of people such as the entire debate socety in NJ think I'm sweet. I seriously don't get it. I mean like, hello? Irritating, yes. Insensitive, yes. Extra and weird, yes. Sweet, NO. Alright, fine, I won't push the matter any longer. But it's stupid.
Coming back to my own personality, I have no idea what else I am. I have this weird inferiority complex that allows me to come up with a long list of faults, but the minute I try to think of my qualities, I come up with zilch. Maybe one or two.
Anyway, I'm off to sleep now... Kind of tired myself out writing... But I think the main crux of my essay is penned down here... *sigh* interspersing debate terms with my speech again... haha... my mind's starting to switch off, so I shall go back to sleep.
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